A Bad Day

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You had ....

Today, somehow, i found this song sang by Daniel Powter to had describe my school day with accuracy. Perhaps, those are not suitable words to bring forward what i wanted to wrote but hopefully, some of you will get it ^.^

School day was fine at first. Well, at least until some misunderstanding incidents happened. Nothing big. Just some conversation which makes me need to be extra patient (Hope you get my point). Since i can't really put myself into blaming anyone,i'll just explain from my point of view...

Everything starts with a question related with my friend's girlfriend. Regrets is all i have for asking THE question cause it was a disaster after that. To be honest, I do not meant anything when i asked that question and it is solely for the purpose of knowing. That's all. Perhaps, it is i who can't see the consequence of asking such question and i will be deem to be busybody. But one thing is for sure, besides getting no response from my friend, i was criticized and given answers by my other friends which brought out the meaning 'Mind Your Own Business'. Fine. I was to be blame for asking that. But i want to make it clear that i never meant anything or whatever toward his girlfriend. I ask just for the sake of knowing and because she is my friend cum so called kai xun. I'll appreciate it if you all do not make stories out of it especially when in front of him. Who knows what he will think ? ... This is not the first time in fact, it is the second time i get such responses. But what can i do on the spot ? Just smile and make a joke out of myself ? Yes and that is what i did. Seems like i was a coward or something for not standing up to my own intention ? Plus, i do not intend to start any quarrel with them (sounds noble but no one cares). I had experienced once a quarrel with a friend and i do not intend to repeat it !

As being said by LieZi, "When misunderstood by others, be aware that you could be the reason for their misunderstanding". Maybe i was the reason but i will never know till the other person speak out to me which i doubt, since i had be given the cold shoulder nowadays when i started a conversation. I sense there is something wrong between us but i never know the reason. I do not even know where i did wrong ! But i'll admit my mistakes and change if given the chance to do so...

I am sorry if i did anything wrong that make you felt disgusted when i am around you. If only i knew where i did wrong, i'll change not for the sake of you but for the sake of our friendship. But i'll make this a point, i'll change for better not to please anyone ! Hmmm ... Thinking back ... This is the first time i had come to a dead end like this. Because, everytime when i ask questions about my friends' girlfriends just for the sake of knowing, they'll just talk about it and does not seems to be crossed.Well, perhaps that is what we get after years of being together and we understand each other very well. But i do wonder where i did wrong this time. Pondering back, i didn't pick up my tone or sound demanding. It was just a casual question. Besides, i did not asked anything too private or talk nonsense about both of you. Thinking ... pondering ... wondering ...

Recently, it seems so hard to blend in with the exam coming nearer and stress level at peak point. I do not know if this is true but heck, that is what i felt. Right or wrong? I do not want to judge but i'll just go on with mine... Perhaps, I'll just make myself talk less and the world will be a better place. Distressed and down ? Surely but I am still me and i have my life to live. And i believe everyone deserve a second chance to be better when it comes to friendship.

Sorry if any of my friends who felt unsatisfied with what i had written. There is nothing personal in here. Just a space where i can put in my thoughts. PEACE !!!

K... Time for a nap (>.<)