Let Go and Go On

Hmmm ... it does seems hard to start what i want to say today. So, past two days, my ex messaged me and said she was unhappy. Really unhappy and just yesterday midnight she sent me a message saying she was crying because she was too sad. Well, being me and as a friend, i do want to help although i expected what will come but i tried to care and ask her. She just acts her usual tough side so i do not want to press on since i am just a friend. I'll know what will come next if i press on asking. On the other side, i do not pressed her for any more answers because i was worry that she still can't let go our past and will ask me if i still love her since i still care about her so much. Being selfish ? Perhaps ...

Today, open my mail and i saw one mail from her. Not any ordinary forward message but a letter-like. Read it up. My worse fear comes true. I will not give the details but just some walk through will do. After the break-up, a guy which is her friend wanted her to be his girlfriend and she told me that before. So, i help her walk through by giving advices to her. Done. Now, there is another St John guy who likes her a lot and has make his move. She is happy when with him and so does him. So, you know what next. There is some true in what the guy said to her. Why wait for a guy who had hurt you and does not give the other guy a chance to prove himself ?It is very true even i do not have any objection. I am a jerk that time and i am going to be another now. I told her to let go of the past and go on with life. The times we've been together is already past and will remain memories. I had let go. Maybe not all but at least i tried to let go and i find something more meaningful and important in life than a relationship. I told her to give herself a chance to live on. It may be hard but it is a lesson that life will always teaches us. No one ever said it will be easy to get up after a fall but if you give yourself a chance to try and get up, you have the chance to live on. Unless you give yourself a chance to do that, you remain where you are. Some things can be hard to let go especially those happy and sweet memories but in the end, when the time is up, we let go. That is life.

"Love can be search and found but it will be a worthless thing if one wait for a someone that has given up hope on love and has move on because he or she found something more important in life than love". This is a quote i wrote to her. Many in love will find this untrue or nonsense but it can't be denied that each and everyone of us find his own way of living his or her own life. Perhaps it will be a wrong principle once i find something greater than what i had found. Well, that will be that time and now, i live on with it. Humans find something new every time they walk their journey. That is what make life so special and meaningful. Each of us have a diary that can't be seen by the naked eye. Every chapter in it is different from the other and that what makes life worthwhile to live.

Well, those are images of what i had written in the mail replied to her. Hopefully, she gets what i meant. I can be a jerk for one day and forever in her heart but i do not hope for her to live her life the way she is living it now. We are all still young and our future is still shining bright. A journey in life that will take a worthwhile time to explore as well as walk upon it. Life... A book where no limitless lesson and knowledge unveil itself with a condition we give ourself a chance to walk on every time we stop to face our obstacles. Feel every step one take during the journey. I hope the very best for you and others that i cared and love.