Break-Up ...

It has been almost one month since i last update my blog. My bad... my bad... haha... Been busy with my life. Well, maybe this is the main reason why it happened. It has been quite a bad thing to do, leaving my blog for this long and now when i have the time to blog, this incident occured.

So, i think i can say that i am the baddie in this. I am the one that should take all the blamings since she finally say it out. This had happened a few times but everytime it is just a "fake" one and since i am the one that bring it up because of several 'reasons', things kind of went back to normal. But then, please do not have the thought that i have my heart on others >.<>

So, the main reason? My action seems like i no longer want this relationship anymore but the truth is that i still appreciate it very much. You may ask why i do not insist on preventing this to happen. I'll give my view and let you all judge. First, i no longer want to bear with the thought that she suffers very much from my action. Messaging and calling has been like once in a lifetime. She can't bear with it although most of the time she sounds like she is ok. I might as well just end it. Second, i have more important things to think about now and perhaps or most probably this has lead to what happen today. Last and finally, my action has make her think that this relationship is only contribution from one side which is hers. Thus, this is one of the factors that this incident arise.

Why can i blog about this so calmly? Perhaps i am a bad or worse, devil-hearted. Judges are always you>.<>

Good thing is we will still remain friends. Perhaps just friends and never more than that. During relationship, i have learned quite a thing or two in life. One thing is very true, when one gain something, he or her will lose something on the other side. Haha. What a nonsense!

At least, i still have a friend. And all my dear friends out there. I do hope no one will make a big thing out of this. Like i said earlier, life goes on. Though a part of me will remain in this and it will be the bad guy i guess...

Well, i have to choose either one rite? I can't own both now cause i do not have the ability to do so. Like what the deejay in My FM said last few days, you can't own love and future both at the same time. This time, i decided to choose my future beforehand. I am very sorry...